1 week ago
i think. it’s feeling nothing that’s the worst feeling of all. i hate it most. being numb is like having the vitality of your life turned off. the luminous colour disintegrating into a fuzzy greying black and white. imagine a valve inside of you. this valve is what allows feelings to spill through. like a tap. we turn it off because we may want the sorrow to stop. but sorrow comes from the same valve as joy. so when we shut the valve to extinguish difficult emotions we end up extinguishing the beautiful ones too. and this is where numbness lives.